Tuesday, May 24, 2016

When You Wait for God's Best

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I woke up today hungry, not for food but for God’s word. I don’t know if you ever felt this way na kahit araw araw ka naman nagdadasal there are days that you just yearn for Him, for His word, for His love. For me, this is one of those days. I searched online for Pastor Erwin Balanay’s series of sermons in Victory Katipunan. Thank you, Lord, for podcasts. I decided to catch up on his preaching before I start working and I think it was the best decision I made today. I thought of sharing my insights just in case this helps kung may pinagdadaanan man kayo.

In Pastor Erwin’s words:
In your life right now, if you are in that point that you don’t know what to do or you are anxious of what’s going to happen next, always remember that GOD MAKES ALL THINGS BEAUTIFUL. Manalo ka man o matalo sa kahit ano pa mang laban, never forget that GOD IS IN CONTROL.

I realized that many times in my life, I always say “Thy will be done” but how much of those words do I really understand? Sinasabi ko lang ba yun kasi dapat? O sinasabi ko yun kasi yun talaga ang pinaniniwalaan ko? There’s this line from Pastor Erwin “kadalasan sinasabi mo lang yan pero aminin mo, uunahan mo pa rin Siya, susundin mo yung sarili mong diskarte kasi feeling mo ang tagal tagal Niya.”

There’s a lot of truth in what he said and I just realized now that letting God be in control doesn’t mean being lazy and doing nothing. It doesn’t even mean that you’re giving up. It only means that you let go of your worries and trust that He will NEVER abandon you and that He will carry you through NO MATTER WHAT. It means asking Him for direction and not second guessing because you have faith na kahit anong mangyari, HINDING HINDI KA NIYA ILALAGLAG. When things fall apart or when it seems like nothing is happening, those are the moments that God is at work. He’s asking us to TRUST. He’s asking us to WAIT.

Much like in a car, hindi pwedeng dalawa ang nagmamaneho. It’s either you hold the wheel or you sit beside Him and give Him full control, otherwise, maliligaw ka, mababangga ka, masasaktan ka. That’s why you have to choose, it can never be both.

Today, I pray for all those who are lost, confused and worried. May you allow His amazing love to comfort you and may you surrender everything to Him so you could clearly see which direction He wants you to take. If you can’t get the answer now, if you feel that He’s being “too silent”… be patient, my dear friend, because God will make things perfect for you. It may take time but have faith that GOD’S BEST IS ALWAYS WORTH THE WAIT.

If you have experienced God’s awesomeness, I encourage you to share. Masarap Siyang pag-usapan lalo na kung may makakabasang mga tao sa friends’ list mo na gustong gusto Siyang makilala. :)


May God bless your heart.

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Monday, May 23, 2016

The Five Stages of Relationship

A friend of mine shared this on Facebook and all I said after reading the fifth was "Wow. It made sense." So I just thought of sharing this to you guys. I'm not sure who the real source is but to the one who originally wrote and posted this, thank you and credits to you. :)






If you are in a relationship now, I pray that you reach all the five stages and may you learn and find the true meaning of "love" in each.

Sa mga single naman, dadating din yan. Sabi nga ni Madam Alam Moreno... "dasal lang talaga". :p

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Tuesday, May 10, 2016

An Open Letter to My First Love and Eternal Bestfriend



Hindi ko alam kung papaano ako magsisimulang magpaalam sayo kasi sa totoo lang, ayoko. Alam mong hindi ako sobrang iyaking tao pero hindi ko akalain na of all people, ikaw pa makakapagpaiyak sakin ng ganito. Ayoko ng ikwento kung papano tayo unang nagkakilala o kung papano tayo nung huli tayong nagkita kasi ang sakit sakit na ng ulo ko kakaiyak. Sa haba at lalim ng pinagsamahan natin baka makatapos ako ng isang libro kaka-enumerate ng memories ko kasama ka.

Lahat ng kaibigan ko kilala ka kasi kahit sa getting to know stage pa lang sa lahat ng nakakasalamuha ko, nababanggit na kita. Ganun ka kahalaga sakin, bes. Parang kalahati ko yung nawala. Paulit ulit kong tinatanong sa sarili ko kahapon, papano na si Jane kung walang Alvi? You left such a big hole in my heart. Kahit pagsama-samahin lahat ng heartaches ko sa buhay mula ng pinanganak ako, by far, losing you is the most painful. Though we had our mini-fights and silent treatments, kahit paulit ulit pa bes, basta pag tatawag ako sayo para makipagbati, alam kong nandyan ka, may magrereply. Ngayon wala ng sasagot sakin. Wala na kong aabangan na magtetext ng “Bes?”

I may know a lot of people and I’ll probably meet more, but no one can ever replace you because what we had was different. It was unique, it was pure. You are the only person who know me too well dahil ikaw lang ang nag-iisang taong dumaan sa buhay ko na naencompass lahat ng klase ng relasyon sa akin. You were once a stranger who became my classmate, my friend, my first love and first boyfriend, my dancemate, my bestfriend, my brother, and my dream partner. Naalala mo nung high school tayo may sinulatan tayong 20-peso bill, binayad natin sa canteen at sabi mo “pag ito bumalik sa isa satin, ibig sabihin tayo talaga”. True enough, nung college na tayo bumalik yung 20-peso bill nung sinukli sayo sa MRT. From then on, we just knew that we have a different kind of connection, we were soulmates. Sabi mo nga “not meant for each other but meant to be together… as friends”.

Maraming salamat sa halos dalawampung taon ng pagkakaibigan, bes. Thank you for being the amazing person that you are and for spending enough time with me in your lifetime. I don’t know if I will ever get over this grief dahil sigurado ako na tuwing maaalala kita, malulungkot ako kasi mamimiss kita. Yung tawa mo, yung mga corny mong jokes, yung pangungulit mo pag nahahyper ka, yung pananahimik mo pag nag-iisip ka, yung gigil mo sa pagkanta kahit nasisintunado ka, yung mga reklamo mo pag ang init init, yung hilig mo sa pagkain, yung pagyayaya mo manood ng movie kasama si Mike pag wala tayo pareparehong magawa, lahat bes. I learned so much from you when you were still with us at ngayong umalis ka, may natututunan pa rin ako. Thank you for teaching me to stay true to myself and for making me realize how short our life is. Na lahat ng pinagkekwentuhan natin noon na gusto nating gawin, simulan ko na kasi hindi natin alam kung ano mangyayari bukas.

I never imagined myself in my old age not having you around, bes. Sabi ko pa nga dati diba, sana tabi tabi tayo ng bahay nila Mike pag matatanda na tayo. Maghihiraman ng toyo. Maghihingian ng suka. I never really cared if in time mabibilang ko nalang sa daliri ko kung ilan ang mga kaibigan ko just as long as you’re one of them. Pero pangako ko sayo, in all my highs and lows, magiging bahagi ka pa rin nun. Yung kwentong sinulat mo na sabi mo hindi mo matapos tapos, hahanapin ko bes and I will make a masterpiece out of it. I promise you, I will pursue all my dreams, lahat ng sabi mo sakin na naniniwala kang mapagtatagumpayan ko, I will do all of it in honor of you.

I may have not been there but I take consolation on the fact that you were with your family and the love of your life during your last moments. Everyone who you left behind especially those who are closest to your heart, we will stay strong bes because I know that this is what you want, for us to heal together. I will talk to you everyday, Alvi, and I will write you as many letters as I can for the rest of my life. One day, when we meet again, payakap ha? Hindi ko kasi nagawa yun nung huli tayong nagkita. We supported each other sa lahat ng bagay, at ngayon, for the last time, kahit ayaw kong iwan mo kami, alam kong diyan ka makakahanap ng kapayapaan. Pakibulong na lang sa Kanya na maraming maraming salamat dahil pinahiram ka Niya sa amin. Pahinga ka na, bes.

PS: Theme song natin nung elementary (na tawang tawa tayo pag pinaguusapan natin)… Ikaw pa rin ang maaalala ko tuwing maririnig ko yung “It Might Be You”.

Mahal na mahal kita, bes. Goodbye, my dear friend.

Saturday, May 7, 2016

Movie Review: This Time



A few readers of mine who are devoted JaDine fans asked me to write a review about James Reid and Nadine Lustre's new film entitled "This Time". I watched the movie and here's what I can say about it... pero teka, disclaimer muna. Ayoko pong ma-bash. Haha! Ito ay pawang opinyon ko lamang. It's up for you guys how you'll take it. I know how passionate some fans can be but I hope wala namang violent reaction. Hehe! 

So, here it goes...

Cinematography, film editing, musical scoring... ANG GANDA. Lalo na yung mga eksena nila sa Japan. Hinintay ko matapos yung credits. Kudos to Viva for employing Japanese experts to join their prod team lalo na dun sa mga eksena nila sa Japan. Napakaswabe ng mga shots. I have watched all their movies, kung sa teknikal lang this is by far the best. In terms of story, it was very light. Ok yung script. Maganda yung batuhan ng linya. Swak, hindi pilit. Winner yung supporting cast especially Candy Pangilinan. I love that part yung sa "special friend, special room, special pathway, special mention, etc" This is the funniest she has ever been in a movie. Galing ng comic timing and bitaw ng linya. James is a bit bulol pa din, fits the character though since si Coby naman hindi naglalagi sa Pilipinas. He's such a debonair. Sa lahat ng movies niya, dito siya pinakagwapo. Nadine, as always, is very simple. Acting-wise, simple din. Walang eksenang grand so hindi niya nashowcase yung skills niya sa drama which is appropriate naman din for the story kasi wala namang bigat yung kwento talaga. Believable siya as a fine arts student. Bagay sa kanya mga ganung roles na medyo artsy. Yung kwento, medyo mababaw yung gay friend na pinagselosan angle. I wish the writer could have played more sa arc nung long distance. I think mas relatable yun. Overall, I still think that Diary Ng Panget is the most entertaining and most kilig but This Time is a good film para matanggal yung Clark-Leah character nila sa kanila. And sa teknikal, ito yung the best. Thumbs up. Worth watching. Kumbaga kung hindi ako fan at first time ko manonood ng JaDine movie, worth the time and money. Saktong pampa GV. I love the ending scene, by the way. That's their most kilig scene for me kasi it looked candid and real. :)

Naisip ko lang as alternative ending... (Disclaimer: Ito ay pawang opinyon ko lamang. Naglaro ang isip ko, naglakbay, napatanong ng "what if". Wala sanang maoffend.)

After nila sa Japan sana dun na sila pinaghiwalay. Na mas pinili nila not to pursue the relationship kasi dun mafifeel yung agony eh. Dun magkakaron ng bigat. Yung feeling na mahal mo pero di pwede maging kayo. Gustong gusto mo pero ang layo layo niyo. Walang problema sa feelings niyo pero yung problema external. Yung circumstance. Dun mas mararamdaman ng tao yung kwento. Kaya nga sabi ko earlier they could have played more sa angle na yun. Wala na yung sa gay friend. Mas marami maeexplore dun eh. Sana nilagyan ng konting weight. Kunwari yung final exhibit say after a year or so siya nangyari, ininvite ni Ava si Coby pero hindi nagreply so she assumed na baka nakalimutan na siya, na nagpalit na ng number, na wala na talaga. Then sa exhibit, kung kailan wala ng tao, pasara na, maiiwan si Ava, meron isang masterpiece dun, kunwari yung ginawa niya sa Japan nung huling beses sila nagsama, inspired by their love story, just when the lights are about to be turned off may hahawak sa kamay niya or may tatabi sa kanya. Magsasabi lang ng one liner na may significance sa kanilang dalawa. Yung boses, yung feeling na parang tatalon yung puso mo, lalabas sa dibdib mo, the first glance after a long time of not seeing each other... iba. Something like that (or maybe a scene less cheesy than this, basta parang ganyan. Haha!). Simple ending pero may impact. Kumbaga nagkaron ng time and space for longing. Na dun nila marerealize na despite the time and the distance sila pa rin talaga. Sabi nila dun sa Japan "the universe conspired for us to be together". How about kung yung ending hindi na yung universe ang nagconspire, how about kung "this time" it was already their choice to be together, hindi na tinadhana kundi pinili na nila. :)


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